XL Sweater

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It’s 3 am. Can’t sleep. I’m listening to that old song we used to listen to together, remembering those times. I can recall your old XL sweater that you added your cologne to so it would always smell like you. The hugs, the cuddles, the love in the air… or so I thought. The cheating was the least concerning thing we went through together. It was more so the fact you threatened to kill people with a toothbrush. Something so simple. Trivial you could say.

The gaslighting was a Tuesday for you. Reminds me of that Pretty Little Liars quote, “[S]he lied more than she breathed.” That was YOU. I never understood what I did to deserve such unkindness. I guess i’ll never know. But right now I’m doing good.

I’m following my passions in school, tending to those who actually love me and being the person of MY dreams. Not waiting for some pathetic dude to fill the void.

As for the XL sweater? I imagine the landfill ate it. It’s ancient history. Just like you. Just like us. I guess you were my biggest lesson, and my heart’s biggest mistake. But the difference is I have risen like a phenix and you, well I know for a fact that you can’t say the same.

Rot in hell, “love of my life.”